it is d latst entry perhaps..

i woke up suddenly at around 4 last night cz  i had a bad damn dream..it was a sad dream i guess because i noticed tears coming down to my cheek..pastu,mcm org kalut i was looking for my henpon everywhere at 4 o;clock in d morning n i saw nothing.not text,no miscall or watsoever..felt like going to past few years back whenever i slept,my fon was always by my side.then i sat n thinking wat the hell are u doing,mimie?u r out of ur mind,bitch..it was all out of my control,siyesly..it was a reflex..suddenly woke up n my heart beat faster,throbbing like hell..then,tears coming down again..but i forgot to count how many..hahaha...then,i slept again with my huge teddy bear under my head...then,i woke up 1hour ago n start thnking  if i had a dream..my eyes blurr n i cant see anythng..i got a big headache this morning..it was all white...it was all pain..it was all tears...this may be d last entry..maybe..

hmm..i had to... gudbye ipoh..

~have a nice day,peeps..dnt frgt to be gud wherever u r~

xde tajuk..

walaweyyy..sila la seseorg dtg n kejut waktu ak tdo..i was just fall asleep lepas asar,then when i woke up,it's already 10 PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ok it was 10.20 mlm act..i gosok2 mata n hope it was still 4.pm even outside was already dark...i was like 'waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...xg swimming'....................nedy n sue xkejut ke weh...gila lama ak tdo...mlm xnak tdo plak mata..




waa..kelas bnyk...kelas n praktikal bertukar ganti...td,present case kat doc hla.myint,dia asyik ckp 'owhh,my God,owhh my child'..student mbbs tau ape mksudnya tu..tp,one thing ak tahu,if kaw xtahu jawab soklan dia,plz senyum sehabis mgkn...then,he wudnt have heart to scold u,peeps..yeah..td,bnyk la jgk details yg tertnggl psl patient..tp,just sengih n said 'we ddnt ask d patient(sambil sengih lagi'..nescaya dia akan bls senyum balik even dia still ckp'oww My God' n membebel tp dalam tone yg xmembangkitkan rs menyampah..

n well,oh My GODness,smlm p ikut angah tgk kak puteri baru lepas bersalin.wohaaaaaaaaa...MASYAALAH.baby dia sgt comel n cute segala bagai..bayangkan umo 2 hari,blh nmpk kulit dia yg putih bersih kemerah2han tuh..umo 2hari hidung dah mncung..biasa hidung baby xberapa nk mancung lagi ms kecik2.. bibir xyah ckp la..xpuas duk cium dia..nama dia  Muhd Afif Darwisyah..ikut mak dia..kak puteri mmg lawa nk matikk..bapak baby tu pun blh tahan..

                 comel,kan??baby,cepat besar n turn out as a good boy...=DD

oopps...pesanan seorang kawan..awak,bkn nk masuk cmpur,sgt xelok kalau awk duk bersuap2 segala bagai kat tempat org ramai mkn n depan org ramai..kawan kat depan awk xret nk tegur ke..kalau sekadar nk rs ,blh la..ni smpai licin pinggan..hmmm,awk islam..pakai tudung.ape nnti kata org2 negro yg lalu lalang kat situ...sy jahat jgk dulu ,wak..tp,the thing yg sy respect pasal MHI,he wudnt make me look as a cheap woman in front of others...never n xpenah.



~have a nice day,peeps=D~

kepingin..

kalu ad hk tanya nk make gapo dooh loni.sayo akn jawab 'sy nk make jeput pise dooh nah'. nk jerit sapa T__T

syg...

sorg kwn yg bercerita pasal kisah cintanya dgn seorg lelaki..smbil teguk oligokoko dgn hamlet kat tgn penuh nikmat,ak tadah telinga...ok..telinga ak mmg utk mendengar luhan hati sesiapa sbb ak pernah melaluinya n pernah rs perlukan org..kalau dulu naek menyampah akuuu kalau hari2 kaw duk bercerita..smpai la ak terjumpa makhluk Tuhan ni..Nahdiya nazri..tiap2 hari keje ak kalau da boring sgt,ak turun cr dia.n dia mm xakan bia ak ckp sorang2 kecuali kalau pakwe dio kol,ak akn undur diri..hhehee..ak akn diam ngn org ak xbiasa n ak akn cakap bnyk ngn org yg ak selesa...so,mmg selalu la nedy jd mangsa...ckp je la,mmg dia da tahu perangai ak..tp dia ni mmg la.. xret la ak nk describe pasal si nedy ni..xpenah skali pun dia kata ak da borim dgr citer sama..ak da mls nk dgr..xpenah sekali pun dia reject kalau ak nk citer paper..mmg xpenah la...kalau dia xblh tu,,mmg ak paham la dia xblh btul...kalau x,ajakla dia p mana2 pun,buat papepun,mkn pape pun,mmg dia xkan tolak..smpaila ak rs ak da susahkan dia..since haritu,kalau hepi ak turun ar cr dia..kalau ak sedih,nanges,ak da pndai bwk diri...tu pun dia akn nek cr ak tanya if ak ad prob..tp,dia marah2 ak..dia kata 'mie,kalau kaw borim ke,turun je cr ak'..dia kata lagi 'kerja kita nnti,mie.hari2 kena dgr mslh sama,mie..hari2 org dtg sbb pening ,demam..'..p,still ak malu nk turun cr dia kdg2...ok,dia lagi muda dr ak sbb dia bdk lompat dulu tp,baeklah,sy mengaku dia jauh lagi matang dr sy...(kening terangkat,mulut muncung)..ape nk buat,dia da biasa hidup independent..ak plk,bkn xindependent tp,jenis ank mnja yg mkn bersuap ni,susah..ok,nedy..nmpknya ak mmg rindu kaw tahap cipan ni sbb even kaw da balik pun,ak still ckp pasal kaw..

dan sejak tu la,ak da mula pndai tadah telinga dgr ape2 citer dr org laen tnpa ad perasaan geram melainkan simpati n tumpang sedih..

berbalik kpd citer kawan td..ap yg dia lalui agk sma la ngn ap yg ak rs..so,ak nasihat je ap yg patut..tp,seronokkan bila nmpak dia sgt disayangi..even dia gaduh2 pun,nnt akn cepat2 baek sbb xtahan rindu dia kata..syg nk gaduh lama2..kan salah sorg mati dulu,xke menyesal xabis...seronokkan nmpak lelaki syg gile2 ar kat dia...dgr je kawan ak ni sakit,berdecit naek motor walaupun mereka jauh terpisah ribu2 batu...yeajj..some people are meant to have dat while some people are not..

yeaaaaaa..sy sgt jeles..tp,sy pun jeles tgk kawan sy yg dah kawen wpun baru kenal 2bulan ngn lelaki tu..lelaki tu pun mcm lepas dating 2kali,terus nk ikat pmpuan tu...kawan ak kata,ms kawen dia xde syg sgt pun..tp,cinta tu dtg lepas diorg dah kawen..dgr cerita si pmpuan tu,sgt lah indah dunia di..

so,cinta sblum kawen ke selepas kawen?

haiii,cinta,cinta..ke mana kaw menghilang..seolah2 ak disumpah si malang...

cinta,dtglah lagi suatu hari nnti....akan kutunggu mentari pagi..mejamah seisi alam ini..bila hanya pandangan sepi utk duniawi..dan bila sujudku hanya utk Ilahi..

to certain people,life is so unfair,aint it?

yeah..to certain people,they do not get much in their life..but peeps,no matter what comes your way , court dates , partners breaking up with u, got heart broken,getting made redundant,getting fired,getting beat up by some idiot .... DONT U BE AFRAID n DNT U LOOK BACK!!! and don't be scared!! pick yourself up cos you will never change whats been and gone!


u know wat, i seem realize dat life is a fight and no matter how many times life beats u to the ground,s long s u keep picking yourself up,keep having hope and faith in yourself,i do believe,one day you will shine!!! don't give up and don't give in..

for me,kalau nk hidup dgn manusia sejagat,kaw kena bijak kalau kaw xmahu kena pijak ..some people,they are so cruel.even in a bad way,as long as they get wat they want,there is no need to think bout others..n the most pitiful one,is U who do not have strength to fight those 'busthird' people back..bahahaha..

frens,we will not always be in this much pain and sorrow,there shud b a time for us when we will have our own bright path..believe me,time does have a way of healing us,though it can be hard to believe dat we r in d midst of feelng so hurt..

just remember,U'R NOT ALONE..do remember dat most people have been there..very few of us get out adolescence without a number of stabs to d heart,rite?n for some of us,those 'stabs' were a frequent part of our young adult years.It is d 'art' on d life dat those freaking people help to draw..it's part of being feeling,interacting human being to every once in a while get ur heart broken.. Doesnt make it hurt less any,mind u!

so,peeps..wat is a fren for?of nedy,she would answer 'kawan utk disusahkan time kita susah n utk susahkan kita time dia susah n utk ketwa bila dua2 senang'..Thank God,walaupun sudah terlalu ramai yg tikam dr belakang.di celah2 semua tu,terselit insan yg Tuhan kurniakan sbgai pngganti seribu kali lebih baek dr yg pergi..kita kena kehilangan sesuatu utk dapatkan sesuatu,kan?sbb tuhan xjdikan manusia utk miliki semua yang mereka inginkan tp ,Tuhan berikan manusia ape yg mereka perlukan.

~be nice to everybody..be good wherever u r..dnt break people's heart even in a 'joking' way..Then,God has His own way to heal ur scar..~

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

wohaaaa... i was like gila suka lagu ni..ad sorg kawan kat fb yg kasi lagu ni..kawan tu adalah kawan kpd balak kawan baek ak..dia suka genre britpop which is kalau ak layan,blh masuk kepala...well,ak jenis blh masuk jiwa ngn bnyk genre lagu2 keculai hardrock n lagu yg gila babeng keras n wat ak nk muntah..100 kali da layan lagu ni =D

shopaholic

tadi p cuci mata kat sue..walaaaaweyyyy...bnyk sungguh baju2 n seluar2 yang menarik di pandangan mata..bermula dgn kemeja kotak2 kaler merah yg teramatlah buat ak nmpk slim...yg tuh mmg dah aim awl2..nk cari saiz je.saiz M..mslhnya stok da abes..n satu lagi kemeja ala2 vintage tanah putih bunga pink kecik..pastu jumpa lahai plk baju blouse bunga kecik2 plk dah.skali ternampak seluar slack kaler coklat ala2 tedyy bear besar ak,...kaler yg ak xe lagi...pastu teringat plk hajat nk kasut hush puppy yg harga lebih mahal dr kasut2 ak yg ada.. postpone sbb tnggu stok..wohaaa.a....n setiap satu2 helai pakaian tu harga dia xlebih rm100 n xkurang RM70..agak blh bla..tp,utk ak angkut semua sekali gus,mgkn kena tnggu lagi 3tahun...dah lama xbeli baju sbb dah lama xjumpa yg berkenan..bila dah jumpa,bnyk plk yg mendatang..

so sebanyak2 pilihan tu hanya satu je yg ak angkut ngn motor ego sue..baju blouse bunga kecik2 cheetah..so,bulan depan,ak hutang kasut tu dgn seluar slack n baju ala2 vintage(tu pun kalau still ad size)..

berfikir sejenak sambil teguk oligokoko...nape org suh pempuan p cuci mata tgk barang2 cantek kalau stress?padahal ak tgk bnda2 tu mmg suka tp lagi stress bila sedar xdapat angkut semua.stresssssssssssss

mood:tgh tnggu durian runtuh dr MARA dgn perasaan berdebar

16 may..it's a teacher's day..rindu cikgu wahab..

May bnyk bnda yg berlaku..bnyk peristiwa penting...

-befday diri sendiri
-befday papa-17may-
-befday kakak-28may-
-hari pekerja-1may-
-hari ibu-
-hari guru-

hari ibu sudah terlepas..owhh,ak xwish selamat hari ibu kat ak punya ibu sbb nnti dia akan jawab 'hari2 adalah hari ibu,hari2 syg ibu..xpyh nk sambut2 sgt lah..'ak mcm 'ok'..tp.bila hari bapa,melonjak2 plk mak ak tuh suh ak jgn lupa wish kat papa ak..kalau blh xpayah wish ngn mulut,kat tangan kena ad hadiah..sama la jgk bila time befday mak ak..bila wish dia kata ;ibu sbnr xingt pun tarikh sebenar ibu lahir,tp dalam ic tulis tarikh nie..'sbb dia kata surat beranak dia hilang...adehai...papa nye befday,smnggu sblum tu dia duk asyik kol suh ingt bapak ak punya befday lagi semnggu..

duk ralit2 nk sambut hari gru,ak teringat sambutan hari guru kat sekolah menengah dulu,masa form 2..ms org duk kalut g tgk ckgu2 maen sukaneka,ak duk sibuk berjiwang bc novel 'Bicara Hati' dalam kelas 2Ih..masa ak form3,ak teringt cikgu nasir yg kecik nyanyi lagu 'Abg beca'..masa ak form4,ak xingt n masa ak form 5,plg best persembahan dikir barat kat dewan putra..hoi,Hariz Ismal..kaw ingt x kaw masuk dikir barat n duk barisan depan skali?kaw n kawan2 kaw..masa tu ak tenung kaw habis2san..hahaha..saje nk balas kaw kacau ak masa ak buat oral BM smpai ak kena marah ngn cikgu Hasnah..tp,xplk ak nmpk kaw malu2..kaw tgk balik ade la..ahh,kaw xingt kot..kaw mmg pelupa kdg2..

n hari guru tahun nie,ak rs mcm nk nages pun ad...tiap2 tahun biasanya,3 org cikgu ak wajib kol teacher Rohani,Teacher Rozmuni n Cikgu Wahab..jap tadi sibuk ak cari balik num ckgu wahab..bila ak jumpa,baru ak teringat,arwah dah xader...arwah baru je pergi..arwah dah tnggalkan kami...ak duduk sendiri..satu persatu kenangan ngn dia..ak letak gmbar dia ngn ak kat dekstop lappy..cikgu,sy xpenah n xakan lupakan cikgu sbb cikgu adlah cikgu terbaik sy...2tahun lepas befday ak dekat2 hari guru..ak kol dia sbb dapat kol free..

'cikgu,ni mimie'
'mimie mano?xkenal,xkenal'
'ni purah la cikgu'
'owhh.kalu purah cikgu kenal'

cikgu,semoga cikgu aman dan bahagia kat sana..sy rindu nk g skoloh n cari cikgu...T_______T...sy tahu di dunia n di akhirat cikgu akan diberkati sbb ilmu cikgu akan sokmo iringi beribu2 pelajar hk rajim jd ank murid ckgu....Terima Kasih..

new layout..

wohaaaa..new layout..wey,ak tataw nk gabung warna la..ni pun rs alomak buruk.n tgk kat tepi,gmbar profile baru ganti yg da berkulat tu....muahahaha

btw,ak nmpak satu post makhluk yg ak plg benci kat muka dunia ni..okay,ni lelaki.. ak kenal since form 1 la..brengsek lu

nk delete,ak mls sbb nnti nmpak sgt..so,ak bia n nk tgk permainan malaun tuh...wey,ak xkan lupa ape kaw buat kat ak,manusia..kaw rosakkan hubungan ak,kaw punahkan hampir semua...kalau blh ak nk spam kaw smpai nama kaw xde dalam fb tuh..ak xkan lupa kata2 bangsat kaw yg buat ak nangis semnggu dulu..ak xkan lupa mcm mana ak rs terhina..kaw tunggu,kaw tunggu..kaw ingat kaw blh senang smpai mati?tak wei..ak sumpah kaw xakan senang...mulut kaw busuk macam sabun toilet kat tandas hospital...

kaw org first ajar ak ape tu benci..ape tu dendam..sampai ak simpan n makan hati ak..padahal hati ak susah nk simpan marah lama2 apetah lagi nk berdendam..tp,kaw hebat sbb kaw berjaya tanam rs busuk tu dalam hati ak..kaw manusia pertama yg ak benci n benci ni xpenah surut tiap kali ak lihat kaw walking around kat fb mcm BE**K..

kaw tahu??satu hari nnti,ak jumpa kaw kat hospital,kaw akn tahu mcm mana sakitnya ak hilang org yg ak syg..kaw tgk nnti mcm mana rs kaw kena buang tepi longkang kat hospital..Ak akn pastikan!!!!!

mimie turn 21...yezaaaaa..

it's not today...11 may aritu genaplah 21 tahun rupanya hidup kat muka bumi nie..yehaaa..n my sis wish..selamat pnjang umo n semoga menjadi lagi matang..i was like..hehehe..sy sudah matang la...then,kat fb first person yg wish semestinya kawan2 yg jauh  di mata tp dekat di hati PEYUH..n pukul 8 mlm waktu malaysia a.k.a 12 mlm kat NZ,dia kol..tp,ms tu ak dan die2org nie duk syok men kat swimmng pool lagik.oww,,i miss her dat muchhhhsss..

n sudah lama xberhubung dgn seseorang dan bertanya khabar..i just like,mgkn dia xingt or mungkin dia xperlu ingt my befday..tp,mlm tu dia jd yg first wish kat fon..terima kasih sbb tak jadikan befday tahun ni seteruk tahun lepas..im not asking for gift or beautiful present..it is more than enuf if u give me back my smile as a present..

n those 12am night,i was waiting for my fat babies to wish me..arrghhhh..but none of them knocked my pintu bilik...i remembered those befday kat k.nerang 2years back..when my fat babies NEDY N ABBY came to my room n give me kiss..i was like so touch...smpai keluar air mata sbb terharu n diorg gado2 mnja n kasitau sape dulu tnggu kat depan pntu...that d nicest thing..not present or whatsoever..tp,mlm 11 may baru ni,i was like =( ,nobody dtg pun pkl 12 am...i fell asleep pukul 4 pg kot...then,lebih kurang pukul 8 pg gtu,someone came into my room n gave me a big hug..kemas n kiss2 kat pipi n kiss lagi said 'sorry smlm tertido'...NEDDY...i was like 'tamaw2'..majuk laaaaa...she was 'alaaa..sorry.smlm tertdo awl..'..hehehe..i so love her..then sblum kuar g kelas,i still got a kiss..awww...

ptg tu balik kelas,i was looking for abby..this beautiful creature xwish lagi...then,jumpa kat tngga..i said 'abby,kaw xwish lagi befday ak'..n dia mcm blur n blh plk ckp 'oww..yeke.xwish eh..hepi befday'..i was like,wth giler..dia nk bg kiss,ak tolak..xmaw la..xikhlas..then dia gelak n naek bilik dia..ak sengih je..

ptg tu,ak ajak sue n nedy p ipoh parade,cari kasut...sbb xde kasut nk bawak hospital..kasut yg harga xsmpai seratus ak beli buat kaki sgt sakit sbb xtahan berdiri 3 jam xduduk2..so,ak cr kasut yg tapak lembut..kasut hush puppy yg hrga 2++ sgt la menarik hati...nnti ah,next month ak kasi kaw jd ak nye..ptg tu ajak si nedy n sue p swimnng,dua2 xnak perg..biasnya diorg xde hal...pastu ajak g tgk baju..n pmpuan kalau da shoppng,xsah balik tgn kosong..

balik tu,nedy suh siap..then i know,hehehe...diorg plan sumthng..oo,patutla abby wat bodoh n sue n nedy xnk p swimmng..rupa2 nya diorg beli tiket wayang n start kul 8.30...isyy..kitorg tgk momok..blh tahan la..n ms dalam wayang,rafik kol..n ak xdgr sgt sbb wayang tu bising..n my fat baby,dd narime kol jgk n xle ckp lama2 jgk sbb bising..thnk sbb kol..sukeeee =DDD...

mlm tu rs mcm puteri..tgk wayang,mkn semua org belanja..mekasih ABBY NEDDY AWE SUE OTAI...syg manyak2..

lalaalalaa

 

buncit tu sbb baju tu okay..peace =))

jiwang sensorang...

wohaaaaaaaaaaa.....last gua jiwang2 seingat gua ialah pada tahun lepas..gua pun da xingat mcm mana rs berjiwang-jiwangan tuh..nape bengong jiwang 2 3 hari ni..so,bila gua jiwang,gua mula la tulis poem sendiri2..syok2 sendiri org kater..smlm tgh2 gua layan jiwang sensorang,tb2 tangan gua laju je menaip2 peekataan di bawah tnpa henti smpai terbuat lah satu "PUISI"..sape yg xlarat nk bc,xpyh la.or sediakn plastik utk muntah...puisi ni xde tajuk sbb gua maen hentam secukup rs..

ada ruang di hati,

yang sukar dimengerti..

yang sesiapa pun susah utk fahami..

yang tiada erti pada sesiapa yg pernah mengisi..

kerana akhirnya dia hanya sendiri,menanti takdir yg dia sendiri belum pasti..

ad rasa utk dicerita,

ad derita utk dibuka,

dan ad bahagia yang pernah dirasa,

juga ad cinta yang xbermakna

kerana akhirnya dia hanya mampu tersenyum suka tanpa ada gelak tawa..

bicaranya rancak penuh makna

kini diam tanpa kata,

bisu seribu bahasa,

yang ad hanya tarian pena,

kerana hatinya sudah tercalar oleh rasa dan racun yg berbisa.

ingin dikata kepada dunia..

kau penuh pura2..

yang ad hanya cerita basi yang direka..

mana mungkin kau ada setiap ketika 

bila semua itu dusta belaka..

~pen off~

sony

i oficially announce dat my sony is already die...xboleh switch on  anymore..kdg2 ok,kdg2 xok...tp,akhirnya kaw pergi jg..maaf sony,sbb xjg kaw dgn baek..ak xpakai pun kaw baju mcm org laen pakai kat fon dia..ak selalu jatuhkan kaw..ak selalu letak kaw dalam poket seluar smpai rosak skrin..lately ni,ak selalu letak kaw merata2..kaw mest majuk ngan ak kan...cepat sgt kaw pergi..ke kaw majuk ak da beli fon baru?sblum ni kaw ok je..2hari lepas ak g order fon baru ,kaw da start buat hal..ak tahu kaw terasa...mest kaw sedih..ak xde niat nk tnnggal kaw pun...sbb ak nk guna kaw lagi..even ad yg laen...

xpe lah..ak simpan kaw dulu..mest kaw dah sgt letih berkhidmat utk ak..ak janji,satu hari,nnti ak ad duit,ak baiki kaw balik...kaw henpon first yg ak beli ngan duit ak sendiri...kaw rehat la dulu...nnti satu hari,ak g baiki n ambik kaw balik,ok?ak janji

=)

it's the last...yeah..tq dear..