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Sunday, June 19, 2011

apa erti bahagia..lalalala...




Bahagia?di mana bahagia yg kucarii..dan pernah satu ketika dulu,ku punya bahagia yg terukir di atas satu harapan yg besar..dan ak bahagia bilamana ak meltakkan cita2,dan kau adalah sebahagian darinya…ak bukan manusia durjana yg mencari bahagia dalam air mata insan laen..bukan juga manusia yg mencipta bahagia dgn hancurnya insan lain.ak mencari bahagia dalam ruang rindu yang tercipta hasil dari rs subur yg berakar dari naluri hati..suci..tulus..dan indah.Bahagia kah kita dgn rupa yg menjadi dambaan lelaki durjana?bahagiakah juga engkau melihat ak menjadi santapan kerana ak tidak mampu berpaut pada satu dahan.bahagiakah ak  andai tiap derap langkah menjadi tontonan tanpa jemu lelaki jalanan..?


Bahagiakah ak dgn wang ringgit yang xterhitung oleh hari2 ku?meragut nyawa insan2 lemah xbermaya.sedangkan kau mengorak langkah penuh gaya..mengatur dunia dgn penuh bijaksana.tidak,kau xbahagia..kerana hakikatnya hati kau penuh rasa tamak harta dunia.. Dan , jangan fikir kau bahagia dengan kau punya dunia.bila kau menciptanya di saat kau masih berhutang duka..Bahagia itu dtg dan pergi.namun,dipertengahan jalan,ak pasti rindunya tertinggal utk tatapan hati.utk dipandang sepi bersama mimpi.jauhnya bahagia yg seolah2 menjadi ilusi hari-hari…


Dan bahagia itu adalah antara cinta dan kebencian..kerana hakikatnya bahagia itu indah bila dibatasi dengan derita..maha suci Tuhan yg mencipta bahagia,utk manusia yg lupa dirinya masih ad Dia.untuk manusia yang menyangka dirinya hanyut dalam air mata derita..bahagia itu masih ada…menunggu kita utk dtg kepada-Nya..Dan bahagia itu bkn lah dari cinta palsu umat dunia..bkn juga dr wang ringgit semata2 atau rupa yg menwan di mata hatta suara merdu yang menjadi halwa telinga..tp,bahagia dtg bila kita mengenal Pencipta kita..bahagia dtg bila sujud kita hanya kearah kiblatNya…dan bahagia itu akan datang selagi kita punya tempat di sisi Tuhan yang Maha Esa

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

it is d latst entry perhaps..

i woke up suddenly at around 4 last night cz  i had a bad damn dream..it was a sad dream i guess because i noticed tears coming down to my cheek..pastu,mcm org kalut i was looking for my henpon everywhere at 4 o;clock in d morning n i saw nothing.not text,no miscall or watsoever..felt like going to past few years back whenever i slept,my fon was always by my side.then i sat n thinking wat the hell are u doing,mimie?u r out of ur mind,bitch..it was all out of my control,siyesly..it was a reflex..suddenly woke up n my heart beat faster,throbbing like hell..then,tears coming down again..but i forgot to count how many..hahaha...then,i slept again with my huge teddy bear under my head...then,i woke up 1hour ago n start thnking  if i had a dream..my eyes blurr n i cant see anythng..i got a big headache this morning..it was all white...it was all pain..it was all tears...this may be d last entry..maybe..

hmm..i had to... gudbye ipoh..

~have a nice day,peeps..dnt frgt to be gud wherever u r~

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

xde tajuk..

walaweyyy..sila la seseorg dtg n kejut waktu ak tdo..i was just fall asleep lepas asar,then when i woke up,it's already 10 PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ok it was 10.20 mlm act..i gosok2 mata n hope it was still 4.pm even outside was already dark...i was like 'waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...xg swimming'....................nedy n sue xkejut ke weh...gila lama ak tdo...mlm xnak tdo plak mata..




waa..kelas bnyk...kelas n praktikal bertukar ganti...td,present case kat doc hla.myint,dia asyik ckp 'owhh,my God,owhh my child'..student mbbs tau ape mksudnya tu..tp,one thing ak tahu,if kaw xtahu jawab soklan dia,plz senyum sehabis mgkn...then,he wudnt have heart to scold u,peeps..yeah..td,bnyk la jgk details yg tertnggl psl patient..tp,just sengih n said 'we ddnt ask d patient(sambil sengih lagi'..nescaya dia akan bls senyum balik even dia still ckp'oww My God' n membebel tp dalam tone yg xmembangkitkan rs menyampah..

n well,oh My GODness,smlm p ikut angah tgk kak puteri baru lepas bersalin.wohaaaaaaaaa...MASYAALAH.baby dia sgt comel n cute segala bagai..bayangkan umo 2 hari,blh nmpk kulit dia yg putih bersih kemerah2han tuh..umo 2hari hidung dah mncung..biasa hidung baby xberapa nk mancung lagi ms kecik2.. bibir xyah ckp la..xpuas duk cium dia..nama dia  Muhd Afif Darwisyah..ikut mak dia..kak puteri mmg lawa nk matikk..bapak baby tu pun blh tahan..

                 comel,kan??baby,cepat besar n turn out as a good boy...=DD

oopps...pesanan seorang kawan..awak,bkn nk masuk cmpur,sgt xelok kalau awk duk bersuap2 segala bagai kat tempat org ramai mkn n depan org ramai..kawan kat depan awk xret nk tegur ke..kalau sekadar nk rs ,blh la..ni smpai licin pinggan..hmmm,awk islam..pakai tudung.ape nnti kata org2 negro yg lalu lalang kat situ...sy jahat jgk dulu ,wak..tp,the thing yg sy respect pasal MHI,he wudnt make me look as a cheap woman in front of others...never n xpenah.



~have a nice day,peeps=D~

Sunday, May 22, 2011

kepingin..

kalu ad hk tanya nk make gapo dooh loni.sayo akn jawab 'sy nk make jeput pise dooh nah'. nk jerit sapa T__T

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

syg...

sorg kwn yg bercerita pasal kisah cintanya dgn seorg lelaki..smbil teguk oligokoko dgn hamlet kat tgn penuh nikmat,ak tadah telinga...ok..telinga ak mmg utk mendengar luhan hati sesiapa sbb ak pernah melaluinya n pernah rs perlukan org..kalau dulu naek menyampah akuuu kalau hari2 kaw duk bercerita..smpai la ak terjumpa makhluk Tuhan ni..Nahdiya nazri..tiap2 hari keje ak kalau da boring sgt,ak turun cr dia.n dia mm xakan bia ak ckp sorang2 kecuali kalau pakwe dio kol,ak akn undur diri..hhehee..ak akn diam ngn org ak xbiasa n ak akn cakap bnyk ngn org yg ak selesa...so,mmg selalu la nedy jd mangsa...ckp je la,mmg dia da tahu perangai ak..tp dia ni mmg la.. xret la ak nk describe pasal si nedy ni..xpenah skali pun dia kata ak da borim dgr citer sama..ak da mls nk dgr..xpenah sekali pun dia reject kalau ak nk citer paper..mmg xpenah la...kalau dia xblh tu,,mmg ak paham la dia xblh btul...kalau x,ajakla dia p mana2 pun,buat papepun,mkn pape pun,mmg dia xkan tolak..smpaila ak rs ak da susahkan dia..since haritu,kalau hepi ak turun ar cr dia..kalau ak sedih,nanges,ak da pndai bwk diri...tu pun dia akn nek cr ak tanya if ak ad prob..tp,dia marah2 ak..dia kata 'mie,kalau kaw borim ke,turun je cr ak'..dia kata lagi 'kerja kita nnti,mie.hari2 kena dgr mslh sama,mie..hari2 org dtg sbb pening ,demam..'..p,still ak malu nk turun cr dia kdg2...ok,dia lagi muda dr ak sbb dia bdk lompat dulu tp,baeklah,sy mengaku dia jauh lagi matang dr sy...(kening terangkat,mulut muncung)..ape nk buat,dia da biasa hidup independent..ak plk,bkn xindependent tp,jenis ank mnja yg mkn bersuap ni,susah..ok,nedy..nmpknya ak mmg rindu kaw tahap cipan ni sbb even kaw da balik pun,ak still ckp pasal kaw..

dan sejak tu la,ak da mula pndai tadah telinga dgr ape2 citer dr org laen tnpa ad perasaan geram melainkan simpati n tumpang sedih..

berbalik kpd citer kawan td..ap yg dia lalui agk sma la ngn ap yg ak rs..so,ak nasihat je ap yg patut..tp,seronokkan bila nmpak dia sgt disayangi..even dia gaduh2 pun,nnt akn cepat2 baek sbb xtahan rindu dia kata..syg nk gaduh lama2..kan salah sorg mati dulu,xke menyesal xabis...seronokkan nmpak lelaki syg gile2 ar kat dia...dgr je kawan ak ni sakit,berdecit naek motor walaupun mereka jauh terpisah ribu2 batu...yeajj..some people are meant to have dat while some people are not..

yeaaaaaa..sy sgt jeles..tp,sy pun jeles tgk kawan sy yg dah kawen wpun baru kenal 2bulan ngn lelaki tu..lelaki tu pun mcm lepas dating 2kali,terus nk ikat pmpuan tu...kawan ak kata,ms kawen dia xde syg sgt pun..tp,cinta tu dtg lepas diorg dah kawen..dgr cerita si pmpuan tu,sgt lah indah dunia di..

so,cinta sblum kawen ke selepas kawen?

haiii,cinta,cinta..ke mana kaw menghilang..seolah2 ak disumpah si malang...

cinta,dtglah lagi suatu hari nnti....akan kutunggu mentari pagi..mejamah seisi alam ini..bila hanya pandangan sepi utk duniawi..dan bila sujudku hanya utk Ilahi..

Monday, May 16, 2011

to certain people,life is so unfair,aint it?

yeah..to certain people,they do not get much in their life..but peeps,no matter what comes your way , court dates , partners breaking up with u, got heart broken,getting made redundant,getting fired,getting beat up by some idiot .... DONT U BE AFRAID n DNT U LOOK BACK!!! and don't be scared!! pick yourself up cos you will never change whats been and gone!


u know wat, i seem realize dat life is a fight and no matter how many times life beats u to the ground,s long s u keep picking yourself up,keep having hope and faith in yourself,i do believe,one day you will shine!!! don't give up and don't give in..

for me,kalau nk hidup dgn manusia sejagat,kaw kena bijak kalau kaw xmahu kena pijak ..some people,they are so cruel.even in a bad way,as long as they get wat they want,there is no need to think bout others..n the most pitiful one,is U who do not have strength to fight those 'busthird' people back..bahahaha..

frens,we will not always be in this much pain and sorrow,there shud b a time for us when we will have our own bright path..believe me,time does have a way of healing us,though it can be hard to believe dat we r in d midst of feelng so hurt..

just remember,U'R NOT ALONE..do remember dat most people have been there..very few of us get out adolescence without a number of stabs to d heart,rite?n for some of us,those 'stabs' were a frequent part of our young adult years.It is d 'art' on d life dat those freaking people help to draw..it's part of being feeling,interacting human being to every once in a while get ur heart broken.. Doesnt make it hurt less any,mind u!


so,peeps..wat is a fren for?of nedy,she would answer 'kawan utk disusahkan time kita susah n utk susahkan kita time dia susah n utk ketwa bila dua2 senang'..Thank God,walaupun sudah terlalu ramai yg tikam dr belakang.di celah2 semua tu,terselit insan yg Tuhan kurniakan sbgai pngganti seribu kali lebih baek dr yg pergi..kita kena kehilangan sesuatu utk dapatkan sesuatu,kan?sbb tuhan xjdikan manusia utk miliki semua yang mereka inginkan tp ,Tuhan berikan manusia ape yg mereka perlukan.


~be nice to everybody..be good wherever u r..dnt break people's heart even in a 'joking' way..Then,God has His own way to heal ur scar..~

Stop Crying Your Heart Out




wohaaaa... i was like gila suka lagu ni..ad sorg kawan kat fb yg kasi lagu ni..kawan tu adalah kawan kpd balak kawan baek ak..dia suka genre britpop which is kalau ak layan,blh masuk kepala...well,ak jenis blh masuk jiwa ngn bnyk genre lagu2 keculai hardrock n lagu yg gila babeng keras n wat ak nk muntah..100 kali da layan lagu ni =D